How Acupuncture totally Saved and restored My Body after giving birth

I've suffered from back pain for as long as I can remember, but nothing has ever been as bad as the lower back, shoulder, and sciatic pain I experienced after having my first baby. I had heard of acupuncture before, but never really knew what it was for, or believed it could work for me. When my back started bothering me due to the weight of my pregnancy, I was hesitant to reach for my over-the-counter pain meds and prescription muscle relaxers. I didn't want to do anything that was potentially harmful to my baby, so I decided to wait it out. It. Was. Terrible.

After having my daughter, I was so excited for some relief, but quickly noticed that I was uncomfortable more often than not, and that not only was my lower back continuing to bother me, but pain in my shoulders and mid-back was now added to the mix. At first, I attributed the pain to actually giving birth, but then realized how much bending, twisting, lifting, and rocking I was really doing with this eight-pound baby in my arms, and she was only going to get bigger.

Not only do I receive treatments for my back, but if I feel a cold coming on, have an injury, or am feeling anxious, there are acupuncture points that help it all.

Twisting my body to put her in and get her out of the car seat, carrying said car seat, kneeling, squatting and bending to change diapers on the go, leaning to put her in and out of the crib, hunching over to breastfeed, and standing up to sway and rock her to sleep were all things I was doing numerous times a day. All of this combined with my already bad back led to the herniation of a disc in my lower back. The pain from this herniation radiated all the way down my leg and caused such severe nerve damage that three years later, a large part of my leg is still numb. I had to do something to get better. I wasn't interested in surgery, so I decided to do everything in my power to naturally heal my back. One of these natural remedies was seriously (and finally) looking into acupuncture.
I found a natural health center in my town, and to say I was a little nervous for my first visit is an understatement. I'm not big on needles, and because all I knew about acupuncture at that point was that it involved a bunch of little needles, I was sweating. But to my huge relief, it wasn't bad at all. The needles are so tiny I could barely feel them as the doctor of Chinese medicine placed them all over my body. I was expecting him to put needles in the areas where the pain was coming from, but he explained that there are points all over our bodies which connect to different ailments, so the needles in my leg or arm (or even ear) actually helped points in my lower back. After that first visit, I continued to have treatments three times a week for a few months. The difference was incredible. I was still rocking, twisting, lifting, bending, and squatting, but I wasn't in constant discomfort. My body began to feel looser, and I really began to feel progress for the first time in a long time.
Since then, I've had acupuncture treatments at least once a week for the past three years. I continued receiving acupuncture while trying to get pregnant with baby number two (there are even points to boost fertility!), throughout my whole pregnancy, and postpartum with my second. Those tiny little needles have saved my mom body by allowing me to put away the pain meds and focus on being present with my kids. And I can definitely feel a difference if I miss an appointment. Not only do I receive treatments for my back, but if I feel a cold coming on, have an injury, or am feeling anxious, there are acupuncture points that help it all.
One last perk to acupuncture is - drumroll, please - my alone time. Every mom needs it, and it just so happens that mine now comes in the form of being left alone in a quiet room with spa-type music playing while tiny needles stick out of my body. Sometimes I listen to a guided meditation, and sometimes I just lie there and focus on my breathing. It's a dream. Either way, I'm so thankful I found something that helps put my frazzled mom body back into place.

Patricia Arquette gives reason why she said 'no' When someone told her to fix her teeth

Conventional wisdom about looks in Hollywood is that if you're not perfect, you're out.
But Patricia Arquette has upended that truism with her long resume in movies and TV and by winning an Oscar for her work in "Boyhood." That's because, while Arquette looks perfect to us, she has a distinctive flaw by Tinseltown standards: Her teeth are kind of crooked.

And she knows it!
As Arquette told People in 2015, that when she was growing up, her teeth were the subject of conversations at home (her siblings are fellow actors Rosanna and David Arquette), and she told her parents she did not want to get to get braces.
Why? "It didn't feel like it would fit who I was inside," she said.

She even had the fortitude to tell a boy in her ninth-grade class something similar. He voted her "best looking," but said she should pay attention to her choppers so she could pose for Playboy.
"I said, 'Why would I want to be in Playboy?'" she recalled. "I just didn't want to look perfect. I didn't want to have to change myself to be attractive. I didn't think that was my responsibility."
Conversations about looks, the 49-year-old star noted, are often centered on women's, not men's appearances.
"I've had so many of these conversations in my life ... what I look like on film, what I don't look like on film," she said. "What are we supposed to look like? Men are not having these conversations. It's like we're trapped in wet wool or something. I just want to be free of it so we can move to the next level as equals."
Hear, hear!

Mom of three Reveals That flight attendant fat shamed her over airplane intercom which led to her weight loss program

A New Zealand woman who claims she was publicly fat shamed on a plane by the flight attendant used the hurtful comments to make a big change in her life.
Kayla Martin, a 25-year-old mother of three, shared her story on Instagram earlier this month. She explains that she was at the Auckland Airport in New Zealand on her way to Australia for a vacation. When she boarded the plane, already feeling self-conscious and wearing a baggy jacket to cover her body, Martin describes the humiliating moment she was called out over the loudspeaker because the seatbelt didn’t fit.

“The airline hostess found it appropriate to announce in the middle of a quiet plane that due to my size, I would need to use the seat belt extension that mums travelling w babies needed and maybe next time I should consider booking 2 seats to accommodate for my size to ensure a more [comfortable] flight for myself and other passengers,” she wrote on Instagram.
Martin explains how the moment of “pure embarrassment and shame stuck with her.

“I loved myself so little back then that I let that airline hostess treat me that way,” she wrote. “I [believed] I wasn't deserving of the same respect that she was showing the rest of the passengers because in my head, I was worth less than every skinny person on that plane.”
However, she decided to use the uncomfortable moment on the airplane as her motivation to get fit and transform her health. Martin has lost 71 pounds, but more importantly, she learned to start loving and taking care of herself.
“The day I started LOVING myself enough to start taking care of ME and nourishing my body was the day I turned a new page. Both my physical and mental health have transformed so much since then and I am so PROUD,” she wrote.
Alongside her post, Martin shared side-by-side transformation photos showing her dramatic weight loss. “The girl on the right side is a lot healthier, a whole lot happier and has so much confidence now (maybe a lil too much 😂). More importantly she LOVES HERSELF!” she wrote. “No matter your size or shape, colour or culture, you are worth just as much as everyone else. Love yourself enough to take a stand for yourself and doing things for YOU. The rest will start to fall into place from there. I am a walking testament to that.”

What actually did Kim Kardashian do To Get Her natural 24-Inch Waist

Lots of early morning workouts were involved.
Kim Kardashian has become a pretty polarizing figure throughout her decade in the spotlight, but one thing about her that's really not up for debate is how ridiculously in shape she is. The reality star and mom of three recently shared a video on her app in which she revealed during her book club meeting that her waist is now 24 inches - and if you're wondering how she was able to make that happen after giving birth twice, a recent interview with PEOPLE suggests that she has former bodybuilder and trainer Melissa Alcantara to thank for that.
If you're an avid watcher of Keeping Up With the Kardashians, then you probably remember the Season 14 episode in which Kim talks about the moment she found Alcantara on Instagram.
"I was looking on Instagram and this bodybuilder popped up on my page," she explained to Kris Jenner during the episode. "She gained 70 pounds in her pregnancy. Her kid's like six now, but she is like ripped."

Kim continued in her confessional, "Melissa is a trainer I found. She's super inspiring to me and I really want to meet up with her and see if she could train me. She could help direct my food and really get me on an amazing path."
That's when she started working with Alcantara - who goes by the name @fitgurlmel on Instagram - for the better part of the next year to lose her baby weight. Kim met with her during the episode to discuss her fitness goals before the two finally started getting down to business.
"They were like, 'Are you available to train Kim on Monday?'" the celebrity trainer told PEOPLE. "I was like, 'Of course I'm available!' And it went from there."
According to Alcantara, she and Kim get together six days a week at 6 a.m. (talk about dedication) to focus on different areas of the body like legs, biceps/triceps, and chest/back. Kim apparently approached her with a request to get some help gaining muscle, but the pair also does cardio together - and, as you can probably tell from Kim's Instagram pics, it's all been paying off.
"Kim has been getting some really nice results, like with her triceps," she said. "She can't believe how much has changed over the last few months. And when you're in this deep, it's hard to go back. She just keeps it up. She's focused and she has a goal in mind."
When it comes to her training regimen, Kim is a bit of a "workhorse," as Alcantara puts it, though she's also attributed some of her weight loss to the Atkins Diet. She aims to eat 1,800 to 2,200 calories per day while also avoiding alcohol and carbs. Tbh, it sounds like a pretty difficult thing to commit to but no one said a body like that comes easily.

I stopped drinking for complete 2 years — and i learnt how the world treats sober people differently

About three years ago, I decided to give up drinking alcohol. The decision was a logical one: I had been diagnosed with ulcerative colitis and found that many of the things I had enjoyed were now a source of pain with especially booze.
After drinking some wine with friends one night, then waking up feeling awful, I made up my mind: no more wine, no more liquor, no more beer. My health needed to be a priority, and so alcohol had to go. And, unfortunately, I quickly found that giving it up made me feel like a total outcast.
I was never a big drinker — in fact, I was the girl everyone teased for being such a lightweight. Due to my shy and introverted personality that has kept me from ever being the life of a party, I started drinking more in college so that I could be a little more "fun." I drank regularly, but never in excess; just enough so that I could let loose a bit and pretend to be more outgoing than I really was. At first, I assumed that not drinking would be easy for me, but I actually found the opposite to be true. 

Explaining why I'm not drinking can be alienating.

Drinking alcohol is basically expected in certain situations and if you aren't partaking, people are going to ask you why. Simply saying, "I'm good tonight" isn't enough. People will demand reasons in a surprisingly pushy way. My closest friends know the deal, and they are wonderful, so none of them bug me about it — but that doesn't mean other people don't.
At some point, someone (an acquaintance, a friend of a friend, maybe even a total stranger) will inevitably ask why I'm still sober. In the beginning, when I was embarrassed by my condition, I would make excuses. If I said I was tired, they would roll their eyes, offering to buy me a shot. If I said I didn't feel well, they would quickly inch away, assuming I was contagious. If I said I couldn't mix alcohol with a medication I was on (which is true), they would offer me a story of when theymixed alcohol with medication, and they were fine, just fine.
Eventually, at some point, I grew tired of giving excuses that weren't working, and started saying, "I have a chronic stomach issue and alcohol bothers me too much." Sometimes people back off after that, literally — they are no longer interested in getting to know me. Most of the time, they pry. Try explaining a chronic digestive disease in a crowded place to someone who is tipsy without coming across as a total buzz-kill. It's not easy.

It's wild that people react this way because I'm certainly not the only person who has stopped drinking in their 20s. Just as one example, nearly 3.1 millionpeople in the United Kingdom participated in Dry January, a challenge to become sober for the month of January.

People tend to make me feel bad about the decision.

Several times, my statement that I'm not drinking has been met with someone saying something along the lines of, "Ugh, boring!" which, surprisingly, does not make me feel spectacular. More often than not, people seem slightly annoyed with the idea that I'm going to stay sober for the night. Every once in a while, someone seems personally offended that I won't let them buy me a drink, even after I become clean about the real reason.
Once, I was on a press trip with a few girls I didn't know. At dinner, I declined a drink, and one girl tried to push me into ordering one. Finally, I said, "I actually don't drink." She raised her eyebrows, looked at her friend, and said, "Oh … that's interesting." They didn't speak to me for the rest of the night. Another time, a guy friend offered to buy me a shot. I said, "Thanks, but I don't drink." He said, "At all, or just tonight?" and I said, "At all." His friend smirked and said, "Wow, you sound like a lot of fun."
Those aren't the only two examples I have of people being unnecessarily rude when they find out I'm staying sober. It's weird that anyone cares at all, and maybe I should grow a thicker skin. But I'll admit that I am someone who usually cares about what others think, and the fact that some seem immediately turned off by my stance on alcohol makes me feel bummed out.  

Being sober forced me to deal with my social awkwardness.

Drinking, for me, was always about becoming a more social person — someone who could be fun instead of someone leaning against a wall, nervously hoping someone would talk to them. And it worked — when I drank, I didn't exactly become the life of the party, but I did loosen up. I laughed without worrying if people were looking at me, I danced when my friends pulled me onto the dance floor, and I started conversations with strangers. I made some of my best friends during long nights out, bonding in that way you only can when you're both a little too tipsy.
When I gave up drinking, I knew I was giving up that side of myself too, which, in retrospect, is probably why it took me so long to do it. I knew that no longer being able to drink would change my social life. Some people can go out and have fun in a sweaty, over-crowded bar while they're sober, dancing the night away without a care in the world. Not me. Without the warm feeling a slight buzz, I feel uncomfortable and awkward, sure everyone else is thinking I look just as out of place as I feel.
At some point, I realized that maybe one of the biggest reasons I felt like an outcast when I was sober wasn't about what other people thought, but about me, and my own insecurities. Sure, it still stings when other people make me feel like a "loser" for not getting wasted, but after a while, it turned into something I could deal with a little bit more.
It took me over a year to get comfortable with my real self: a girl who likes to be with her friends, but who isn't great in a huge crowd, and someone who will likely never be the life of the party. I stopped trying to force myself to go out and accepted that maybe I just didn't want to go out. Maybe I liked quiet nights with friends or my fiance or my family members more than being in a bar — and that was okay.
I'll admit that there are still some weekend nights when I'm in bed by 11 p.m., and I feel almost guilty for not being out. But those nights are becoming fewer and further in between. 

I stayed totally sober for almost two years.

A few months ago, during a lapse in symptoms, I slowly started drinking again. Now I'm sometimes able to have a glass of wine or two, which is nice.
But even without the wine, I learned how to be a little bit less socially awkward without the aid of alcohol. Unless my digestive disease drastically changes, which I don't think it will, I'll never go back to drinking a lot. And, actually, I'm fine with that now — and it feels nice.

Trump and Stormy Daniels issues is getting out of hand in a bad way

President Trump's Stormy Daniels problem is getting worse.
The porn star, whose real name is Stephanie Clifford, says she is ready to spill the beans about a 2006 extramarital sexual encounter with the president now that Michael Cohen, the president's personal attorney, has acknowledged he paid her $130,000 to not discuss the allegations publicly.

Cohen, who spent years leading the legal team at the Trump Organization, has in the past described himself as the president's "fix-it guy."

A lawyer for Clifford says Cohen violated their nondisclosure agreement and that she's preparing to tell the story in full. "Everything is off now and Stormy is going to tell her story," said Gina Rodriguez, an attorney for Clifford.
Clifford's accusations bring unwanted scrutiny to the Trump's private life, and could also have legal ramifications.
A liberal watchdog group has filed complaints with the Department of Justice and the Federal Election Commission alleging that Cohen's payment to Clifford runs afoul of campaign finance laws, although GOP lawyers are dismissive of the claims.
It's another political headache for the White House at a time when the administration is dealing with the enduring controversy over a senior aide who resigned amid accusations he abused his ex-wives.
Republicans are worried that the White House's stumbling response to that controversy will further erode their standing with women ahead of the 2018 midterm elections.
As a result, more news about a possible presidential affair with a porn star, which allegedly took place shortly after first lady Melania Trump gave birth, is unwelcome.
"It's one more example of Trump disrespecting women, both his wife and the woman he had an affair with and then tried to buy her silence," said Jennifer Lawless, who leads American University's Women & Politics Institute.
"Trump's level of support among women voters has gone down and these issues have a lot to do with it. But more importantly for Republicans, it drives up Democratic turnout that leads to the kinds of outcomes we saw recently in Virginia."
Rumors of Clifford's allegations had been bubbling under the surface for some time at celebrity gossip magazines.
The story burst back on to the scene in January when the Wall Street Journal reported that Cohen had given Clifford hush money shortly before the campaign.
Clifford began making the rounds in the media but would not confirm or deny whether the affair took place.
Clifford's attorney circulated a statement with her name on it denying the affair but in a subsequent interview on Jimmy Kimmel Live, the actress strongly implied that the statement was not true and that the encounter did take place.
This week, Cohen told the New York Times that he made the payment but that he acted alone and was not reimbursed for it.
Trump's allies are dismissing the controversy as another media-generated distraction that will have zero impact on the president's broader support, which has ticked up in recent weeks as voters have warmed to the GOP tax bill.
"The media's ability to impact public sentiment has been so completely diminished that this will have no impact on Trump's numbers," said a former Trump transition adviser.
"Nothing the mainstream media is talking about is at the forefront of the thoughts of most Americans and Melania has learned from experience that the media makes up all kinds of ugly stories."
Privately, some of Trump's allies are questioning Clifford's integrity, pointing to her background in adult films and the statement released by her attorney denying the affair.
And they argue that the public will shrug-off the controversy, as voters knew what they were getting when they elected a reality television star as president.
"Nobody thought they were electing a priest," said Sam Nunberg, a former Trump campaign aide.
Frank Cannon, the president of the conservative American Principle Project, said the Evangelical voters that make up a substantial portion of Trump's base would stick by him. The Christian right has been thrilled by Trump, believing he has delivered on his campaign promises.
"Evangelicals and conservatives have fallen for guys who talk right about the issues - we've elected them time and again and we didn't get anything out of it," Cannon said. "This is a guy who comes from a crass political world. He doesn't have the rhetoric or the biography so he knows he has to deliver for us to keep our support and he's done that."
"This is not a guy I want to be my pastor," Cannon added. "But being a pastor isn't the job. I'm not sure my pastor can deliver politically like Trump has."
Cohen's admission that he paid Clifford out of his own pocket appeared to be aimed at putting to rest questions about whether the president or his campaign was involved.
Individual donors are restricted to giving $2,700. The liberal watchdog group Common Cause, in separate complaints filed with the DOJ and the FEC, alleged that the $130,000 was tantamount to in-kind campaign contribution.
Common Cause says the payment is illegal even if it did not come from Trump or the campaign because Cohen was acting as "an agent of then-candidate Trump."
Conservative lawyers dismissed the claims as a cheap effort to keep the story in the news.
As a well-known celebrity businessman, Trump has countless reasons to protect his reputation that extend beyond the campaign, conservative legal experts say.
"If you believe individuals would try to obtain settlements from a rich celebrity like Donald Trump irrespective of his candidacy, then this payment has no FEC implication," said Charlie Spies, a GOP lawyer.
Larry Klayman, a lawyer and founder of a conservative watchdog group, echoed that sentiment, saying that FEC complaints rarely gain traction and that there is nothing illegal about paying to protect one's reputation. Klayman said he doubts the Justice Department complaint will go anywhere either.
"The Trump Justice Department and attorney general Jeff Sessions have had a hard enough time investigating Clinton and the Democrats," he said. "It's all Washington Kabuki theater."
Some have likened the controversy to the government's prosecution of former Democratic vice presidential candidate John Edwards. In that instance, the government failed to convince a jury that payments connected to an affair were considered regulated campaign contributions or expenditures.
"There seems to be an effort afoot to try and make this a legal issue," said Caleb Burns, a partner at Wiley Rein, who specializes in political law. "It's by and large a personal relationship issue."

Science Reveals that To Be Truly Happy, You Always Need This

"You always want what you can't have" is a phrase most often repeated by people trying to make a point that you should be satisfied with what you already have, rather than trying to attain more for fulfillment. After all, if you're just looking to the next big thing, you'll miss what's right in front of your eyes ... or so every romantic comedy ever has taught us.
Turns out, those people are wrong, at least to some extent. 
Studies have shown that it's not actually the achievement of goals that drives people onward — it's the desire to seek out bigger and better things. Turns out, wanting what you can't have might actually be the goal to a happier life.
How many times have you been told "no," "you can't," or that you aren't allowed to do something? When we're children, a natural reaction to this is a temper tantrum — arms flailing, lungs emptying, eyes leaking tears. We want to do whatever they won't allow us.
But when you're older, you find ways to deal with these upsets discreetly. A teenager might sneak out after curfew; a young adult might just ignore all rationality and do what they're told not to do anyway, which is why no one likes to hear "I told you so."
Learning consequences from our actions — and gaining wisdom from experience after we've messed up — is something that's bred into us from a young age. But as you grow, so does your need to explore and understand the world around you. And being told that you can't have something just makes it that much more desirable.
Why? Because it's sparked a little something within you called curiosity. And once your brain latches onto that urge, it's hard to get it to let go.
Curiosity is the single part of the human brain that propels us forward. It's what makes us choose things for ourselves — both stupid and incredibly smart — and guides us to new discoveries in personal and professional aspects of our lives. It's also what gives us the animalistic desire to follow said curiosity down whatever dark alleyway it leads us.
According to Jack Panskepp, the author of Affective Neuroscience, the reason that people keep exploring and trying to experience everything life has to offer is because it's bred into our very DNA. Every mammal has the same need to seek out circumstances in their environment and explore whatever will make their chances of survival better. Since it's linked to our reward-pleasure centers, your brain actually rewards you for pursuing whatever you're curious about.
So, wanting to get to know a new person, getting that job promotion, finding new music or exploring different areas of the world is actually so you can feel the thrill of the hunt, not the completion of a task. It's why putting the puzzle together feels better than staring at it when it's all done.
When you've reached your goal, it's over. But in the process of achieving it, you feel the happiest.
Pursuing the next big thing in your life can actually make you happier, because you're moving forward and striving to attain something. In our very goal-oriented and reward-focused brains, that's the thing that keeps us smiling.
The need to quest and pursue things in our lives is a natural human inclination, but can often come with unsavory consequences. Wanting more, desiring a better outcome, and trying to make things more beneficial for you is actually more rewarding than achieving those desires.
This is the same reason that people who win the lottery can be content playing for nothing after years, but don't gain any happiness once they've actually won that big jackpot. This is why it's important to balance curiosity with common sense.
Knowing that something isn't attainable because it might be detrimental to your health, circumstances, or psyche is far different than thinking you can'tdo something and working harder to achieve it. It's the difference between wanting a married man because you can't have him or deciding to train and run that 5K you've been talking about forever. One is obviously better for you than the other, but your brain still wants them both equally, and knowing a man is married might actually make him more attractive to you for this very same reason.
So, as it turns out, the key to a happier life is pursuing the things that will make you happy and are also healthy for you. Setting and achieving goals is a good thing in your life; find what piques your curiosity and use it to make your life better.
Go ahead and dream, pine away for more wealth, better relationships, or a sexy partner. Accomplish goals that you'd never even imagined, and explore every bit of the world. Work to achieve those things and then reap the rewards from your efforts.
Just make sure in the pursuit of your own happiness that you're not ignoring common sense to trample on someone else's.

deadly Florida high school shooting survivor's mother: We have received death threats

The mother of a student who survived the deadly Florida high school shooting said her family has received death threats in the wake of the tragedy.
Student David Hogg and other survivors of the Florida shooting have made frequent media appearances in recent days to call for action on gun violence. They have since become the subject of conspiracy theories falsely claiming they are actors who were coached ahead of their television appearances.

Hogg's mother, Rebecca Boldrick, told The Washington Post her family has received death threats online since the conspiracy theories surfaced.
"I'm under so much stress," she told the Post.
"I'm angry and exhausted," she continued. "Angry, exhausted and extremely proud."
Hogg has spoken out in recent days against the conspiracy theories against him, saying he is not a "crisis actor" but is someone who had to live through this tragedy.
"It's annoying. I hate it. But it's part of American democracy," Hogg said in a phone interview with the Post. "Am I an actor? No. Am I a witness? Yes."
Earlier this week, a Florida state lawmaker's aide was fired hours after claiming two survivors of the Florida shooting - including Hogg - who had appeared on television were actors.
Benjamin Kelly, an aide to state Rep. Shawn Harrison (R), emailed a Tampa Bay Times reporterafter Hogg and Emma Gonz lez called for legislation to stop gun violence in an appearance on CNN.
According to Tampa Bay Times reporter Alex Leary, the staffer said, "Both kids in the picture are not students here but actors that travel to various crisis when they happen."
Florida House Speaker Richard Corcoran (R) later tweeted that he fired Kelly.
Survivors of the shooting have spoken out in multiple interviews against gun violence. Some appeared Wednesday night during a CNN town hall, in which residents of Parkland, Fla., were given the chance to question Florida lawmakers and a National Rifle Association spokeswoman.
Students in schools across the country this week have also staged walkouts and marches to demand action on gun control.

Douglas school Policeman who 'never went in' during the shooting has resigned

Eight days after mass shooter Nikolas Cruz murdered 17 people inside Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School, Broward's top cop on Thursday revealed a stunning series of failures by the sheriff’s department.
A school campus cop heard the gunfire, rushed to the building but never went inside – instead waiting outside for another four agonizing minutes as Cruz continued the slaughter.
And long before Cruz embarked on the worst school shooting in Florida history, Broward Sheriff’s Office deputies had multiple warnings that the 19-year-old was a violent threat and a potential school shooter, according to records released Thursday.
In November, a tipster called BSO to say Cruz “could be a school shooter in the making” but deputies did not write up a report on that warning. It came just weeks after a relative called urging BSO to seize his weapons. Two years ago, according to a newly released timeline of interactions with Cruz’s family, a deputy investigated a report that Cruz “planned to shoot up the school” – intelligence that was forwarded to the school’s resource officer, with no apparent result.
The school’s resource officer, Scot Peterson, was suspended without pay then immediately resigned and retired. Two other deputies have been placed on restricted duty while Internal Affairs investigates how they handled the two shooter warnings.

The admissions, made by Broward Sheriff Scott Israel at a press conference on Thursday evening, added to the growing list of missed signs in the years before Cruz went on a rampage that has horrified the nation and re-ignited the debate on gun control. The FBI, in an earlier and equally astonishing admission, said last week that the agency failed to act on a tip in January that Cruz was a possible violent threat.
“I’m completely disgusted,” said Broward County Commissioner Michael Udine, a former mayor of Parkland whose daughter attends Stoneman Douglas. “There is nobody in authority talking to each other and every organization that had a chance to stop this completely failed our children from top to bottom.”
Thursday’s revelations came the week after Cruz took an Uber to the Parkland high school, armed with an AR-15 rifle and extra ammunition, and opened fire inside Building 12 on the sprawling campus. Seventeen people died, and another 15 people were injured.
Cruz ditched the weapon and escaped, blending in with fleeing students. He was captured about an hour later and confessed to the killings. He is now awaiting trial and could face the death penalty.
Since the massacre, law enforcement and education authorities have come under intense scrutiny for their handling of Cruz over the years. BSO, the county’s largest police department, is also under the microscope for its response to the shooting – chiefly for how school resource deputy Scot Peterson responded once the gunfire erupted at 2:21 p.m.on Valentine’s Day.
Peterson – named school resource officer of the year for Parkland in 2014 – was in another building, dealing with a student issue when the shots sounded. Armed with his sidearm, Peterson ran to the west side of Building 12 and set up in a defensive position, then did nothing for four minutes until the gunfire stopped, the sheriff said.
On Thursday, Israel said surveillance footage captured the officer’s inaction. Asked what Peterson should have done, Israel said: “Went in. Addressed the killer. Killed the killer.”
Israel added: “I am devastated. Sick to my stomach. He never went in.”
Since the Columbine school shooting that left 12 dead in 1999, cops have been trained not to wait for heavily armed SWAT officers but to enter buildings to find and kill the threat.
“When we train police, the first priority it to stop the killing,” said Pete Blair, the executive director of the Advanced Law Enforcement Rapid Response Training Center at Texas State University
Said former Broward Sheriff Al Lamberti: “These events are over in three to five minutes. You don’t have the luxury to wait. You might not have the best equipment, you might have small numbers, but you’re armed. Those kids are not armed. You have to go in and engage the shooter. Our job is to protect and serve.”
According to a BSO timeline released during the press conference, the department had field 23 calls in the past decade related to Cruz or his family.
Many of them seemed uneventful at the time, but foreshadowed mounting troubles with Cruz.
The first report came in November 2008, when Cruz – then 9 years old – threw a rock at another boy outside their Parkland home. In the following years, Cruz's mother called police to report various disturbances: her sons were fighting, Cruz hit her with a plastic vacuum-cleaner hose, the boys left the home through a bedroom window.
On another occasion, the 14-year-old Cruz punched a wall because she took away his X-box. An employee of Henderson Behavioral Health came and said the boy did not meet criteria for involuntary psychological evaluation under the state’s Baker Act.
In November 2014, deputies were called to a neighbor's home after he reportedly shot a neighbor's chicken with a pellet gun - his mother agreed to lock away the gun and the fowl's owner declined to press charges.
Then, came the first serious red flag.
In February 2016, someone reported that Cruz “planned to shoot up the school.” A deputy was shown an Instagram photo of a “juvenile” with guns. Investigators say they don’t know which school was the possible target.
According to BSO, a deputy talked to the anonymous caller, then determined that Cruz “possessed knives and a BB gun.” That information was forwarded Peterson at the Douglas campus, police said. The internal affairs unit is now investigating why nothing came of the report.
Seven months later, in September 2016, a Douglas school counselor reported to the school resource officer that Cruz might have ingested gasoline and attempted suicide by “cutting himself.” He also said he wanted to buy a gun and had a Nazi symbol on his book bag.
The school initiated a “threat assessment” on Cruz, then 18, suggesting he suffered from depression. The Florida Department of Children and Families also investigated Cruz and determined he was not a threat to himself or others. At the time, he was undergoing therapy with Henderson Behavioral Health.
BSO had no more contact with Cruz until November 2017, shortly after his mother died of a respiratory illness. His mother's cousin, Katherine Blaine, reported that the woman had died and asked that BSO seize the arsenal.
A deputy responded and a "close family friend agreed to take possession of the firearms." After the shooting, Blaine claimed it was only BB guns and denied she had asked for deputies to take the weapons.
Then, on Nov. 30, an unidentified called from Massachussets called to say Cruz was collecting guns and knives. The caller believed "Cruz will kill himself one day and believe he could be a school shooter in the making."
BSO, however, never even wrote a report on the tip. Internal affairs detectives are now trying to figure out what happened. Deputies Edward Eason and Guntis Treijs are on restricted duty while detectives examine their handling of the two potential school shooter tips. After the shooting, the tipster was re-interviewed and said BSO told him to report Cruz to the Palm Beach Sheriff's, as the teen was then living in the neighboring county.
There, Cruz was also on the radar of law enforcement.
The family that took in Cruz after the death of his mother called the Palm Beach Sheriff’s Office to report a fight between him and their son, 22. One member of the family told police that Cruz had threatened to “get his gun and come back” and that he had “put the gun to others’ heads in the past.”
But the family did not want him arrested after he calmed down.
Nikolas Cruz’s dangerous and disturbing behavior was flagged repeatedly to authorities, both local and federal, over a span of two years starting in February 2016. But no one stopped him before he killed 17 people at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School in Parkland. Here’s a time line of incidents where Cruz was reported to law enforcement. Many of the incidents involve the threat of a school shooting.
▪ Feb. 5, 2016: A Broward Sheriff’s Office deputy is told by an anonymous caller that Nikolas Cruz, then 17, had threatened on Instagram to shoot up his school and posted a photo of himself with guns. The information is forwarded to BSO Deputy Scot Peterson, a school resource officer at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School.
▪ Sept. 23, 2016: A “peer counselor” reports to to Peterson that Cruz had possibly ingested gasoline in a suicide attempt, was cutting himself and wanted to buy a gun. A mental health counselor advises against involuntary committing Cruz. The high school says it will conduct a threat assessment.
▪ Sept. 28, 2016: An investigator for the Florida Department of Children and Families rules Cruz is stable, despite “fresh cuts” on his arms. His mother, Lynda Cruz, says in the past he wrote a racial slur against African Americans on his book bag and had recently talked of buying firearms.
▪ Sept. 24, 2017: A YouTube user named “nikolas cruz” posts a comment stating he wants to become a “professional school shooter.” The comment is reported to the FBI in Mississippi, which fails to make the connection to Cruz in South Florida.
▪ Nov. 1, 2017: Katherine Blaine, Lynda Cruz’s cousin, calls BSO to report that Nikolas Cruz had weapons and asks that police recover them. A “close family friend” agrees to take the firearms, according to BSO.
▪ Nov. 29, 2017: The Palm Beach County family that took in Cruz after the death of his mother calls the Palm Beach Sheriff’s Office to report a fight between him and their son, 22. A member of the family says that Cruz had threatened to “get his gun and come back” and that he has “put the gun to others’ heads in the past.” The family does not want him arrested once he calms down.
▪ Nov. 30, 2017: A caller from Massachusetts calls BSO to report that Cruz is collecting guns and knives and could be a “school shooter in the making.” A BSO deputy advises the caller to contact the Palm Beach sheriff.
▪ Jan. 5, 2018: A caller to the FBI’s tip line reports that Cruz has “a desire to kill people” and could potentially conduct a school shooting. The information is never passed on to the FBI’s office in Miami.
▪ Feb. 14, 2018: Nikolas Cruz attacks Stoneman Douglas High. Peterson, the school’s resource officer, draws his gun outside the building where Cruz is shooting students and staff. He does not enter.